New year, new beginnings
Funny how I thought that was so true when I was little.
The truth is that things change only if God wants them to.
Not because of a slogan update or new priorities in your schedule.

It hasn’t been easy, trusting in Him
And I’m not lying when I tell you my heart is weary and I feel weak.
I’m hurt because I feel I deserve the world.
I’ve been nothing but faithful and trusting
I’ve fallen and cried about my bruises
But I still got back up again.
God sees me losing hope and He pats my back saying
“Patience young one, it’ll all make sense eventually”

I can’t stop myself from crying wondering if I’ve done something wrong.
The voices in my head grow louder by the day, their cries getting worse still.
I sleep to avoid them, I play music to interrupt them
But in the end they’re still there and I have to consciously get up and fight against them.

“With what?”
Prayer of course.
If you talk to God you’ll surely hear from Him.
He could use anything to talk to you, even tik tok.
You just have to pay attention and avoid unnecessary talk.

“But I can’t go on”
Nothing feels right anymore
Who told you that and why would you believe that crap.
If God has said it then His promise will ring through.
You just have to pray about it to keep your faith renewed.

Anybody who has been there will tell you it’s hard
And unfortunately they’re absolutely right.
You’re not going to want to get up.
Youll want to stay down and let your dreams rot.
Every single thing in you will want to quit.
But remember;
The prize remains ever great, ever glowing for those who refuse to stop

Let’s talk…

Hope is frail. It’s kinda like a candle. If you walk in a windy area it will quickly go out. But if you guard it diligently you’ll have a source of light for quite some time.

Alessia Cara’s best days has been on repeat in my head for some reason. It’s so easy to feel that “the best days are the days you’ve survived” when things are rough. You want to give up and just stop hoping cause it hurts to look forward to something that might not be there. And in some cases, eventually you do lose hope.

I can’t say that I understand exactly what you’re feeling right now or that I know what you’re going through, but I’m writing this to encourage you to keep going. Things really do get better eventually. There’s always light at the end it the tunnel.

Whatever it is you’re going through right now could become your testimony. Remember that through hardships, you learn, grow and become an even greater person. It might not make sense right now, but in the future you’ll look back on this present problem and smile. It’ll be ok. Hang in there ❤