The water is cold
Things don’t seem to be getting better
Storm clouds hovering a hint of what is to come.
My legs are getting tired, My lungs filled with ice.
The urge to give up overwhelms me, and I’m afraid it’ll soon swallow me whole

“You aren’t reading enough”
“You’re too slow, too weak”
These are the words that suffocate me making it hard to breathe
How can I try so hard and you tell me it’s not enough
How can I give it my all and you say I’m not trying at all.

I keep myself afloat
Barely pulling myself together
I don’t want to drown
I don’t want to give in to this stormy weather
But it’s hard to keep going when it seems like there’s no help in sight.
Not a life boat, or a helicopter, no, there’s nobody for Miles.

“Its not that bad”
“There are people who have it worse than you”
As if everything isn’t already bad enough, you’ve found a way to make it even worse.
These words are harsher than the icy winds that slice through my skin
No, the huge waves are nothing compared to these dark words of yours.

It’s funny how no matter what I do
It’ll never be enough for you.
In my life, in exchange for putting in more effort
The pressure is increased on all sides.
It’s like I’m a contestant
On America’s got talent
And you’re the judge who’ll always critique me.
You’ll never be satisfied no matter how much I put in.

And this is why it feels as if I’m drowning.
I try so hard to keep myself afloat with positive words and bible verses.
But I’m worried that one day they won’t be enough to save me.
I’m overwhelmed, I’m fighting for my life, my future.
I’m trying to save myself because I know no one else can help me.

Maybe a search party will come looking
Maybe they’ll see me struggling from the shore
Or maybe they won’t see me because of the downpour
And they’ll just keep walking on.
Till I eventually find my way to dry land again,
I’ll keep paddling by God’s grace,
And hopefully he’ll see me through.

Hello

So I think the poems are getting a little excessive. I enjoy writing them and I’m kinda lazy when it comes to other forms of content but this isn’t the only things my blog is meant for. This isn’t even the main theme. Hopefully, my next blog post will be different.

Let me know what you think in the comments. And follow for more 😉