Everything’s been the same,
Little to nothing has changed.
I get up in the morning, eat, shower,
Do all my chores and then wake up the next day.

I’ve been relieving the same say for six months.
For six months I’ve been repeating the same cycle.
Every night I go to bed wondering if I can really do this,
If I can really get out of bed tomorrow knowing that it’ll all be the same.

Nothing exciting ever happens anymore.
I don’t feel that close to my new friends.
And my old ones no longer feel like home.
What happened to me? I don’t know.
No, this isn’t your regular sci-fi story.
Just a girl feeling bored and tired of feeling lonely.

They tell me to relax,
That I’m not the only one stuck in a loop.
Things will change, they’ll get better,
The only thing I need to do is be patient.
But it gets exhausting sometimes,
And my life I fear is wasting away.
While everyone else is busy doing something,
I sit here at home doing nothing.

What makes me most upset is how no one seems to care.
Those living in the loop are used to, it no longer upset by it.
Those not living in the loop don’t care about it, most know not about it’s existence.

But I care.
I’ve cared from the very day I noticed this weird cycle.
And even though I try as I might to convince myself that I don’t,
I still do.
I don’t want it to be like this for much longer.
Can’t believe I’m saying this but I miss drama.
And I don’t want to be shamed or ridiculed,
For feeling upset about what I believe matters.

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I’ve been in a rut, so it’s been hard to write. The inspiration is there as it usually is but I just couldn’t find it. Sometimes, It’s like You’re stuck, you know? And you tell people about it and they can’t help you. And then you feel even more alone.

These past few months haven’t been the most exciting. Usually I’m chill about life but sometimes for about a week I can just shut down and not want to talk to anyone. I think I’ve already written a poem about that… I mean people need to learn to understand that being grateful isn’t to be equated with constant happiness. Imagine being happy all the time, your loved ones would take you to a loony bin.

It is well. I’m basically turning this into a rant so I’ll just stop here. Thanks for reading up to this point. Do follow if you aren’t already doing so. Take care!