Everything around me seems to be falling apart,
Like the pages of an old book which has been re- read too many times.
I watch, my face dry having no tears left to cry,
As people move on happily with their lives while I wallow in mine.

My life feels like a crappy low budget tv show,
And all I can do is scream at the characters.

Clutching my pillow I yell “Why are you so shallow?”
 I look on unable to do anything at all,
To take matters into my own hands, to stop people from hurting me.
My throat grows sore from lamenting and groaning.
“I can’t do this anymore”, I tell myself. But I keep on going

 Eventually, I hope I will become Numb
Unable to feel the pain, or hear the voices that I cannot block out with my thumbs.
Everything will be a blur, nothing will matter.
Then everyone can go on as they please and it’ll be  like I’m none the wiser.

Don’t mistake me for a cynic, I wasn’t always this way.
I tell my tale the way it is today for there is only so much a young girl can take.
Where is my happy ending? When will this long and dramatic series come to an end.
The ride was fun but I think I’ve had enough.
I watch on and on even when my eyes seem to scream “enough!”
My heart filled with heavy emotions, my mind filled with gut wrenching thoughts.
I ask myself another question “Where did it all go wrong”
 And I pray to God that I may get to live “happily ever after” after all.

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I wrote this earlier this year when things were a lot worse than they are now (and when I mean a lot I mean A LOT) I’m not completely better but I’m ok now.

I’m thinking of pulling all my poems together and making a book of them. But I’m not sure if it’s worth it because people find poems boring and only read them if they have to. I’m still thinking about it though.

Honestly, I love this blog a lot. It isn’t ridiculously popular or anything but posting poems here and seeing people actually read and like them is really cool and inspires me to keep writing. So I just wanted to say a big thank you… Oh and happy new month!