I’ve heard a lot of news,
Rumors, I’ll call them,
Because I’ve been down for so long,
I’m not sure if I should believe them.

People tell me lots of things,
About the verge of breakthrough.
“That’s where you are” They tell me.
But I don’t want to get my hopes up,
Only for them to get dashed again.

They tell me that when you’re almost there,
When the suffering and pain is almost over,
Everything will hurt the most.
And you’ll be tempted to give up.
You wont want to keep going,
The devil will try his hardest to stop you.
But you have to get up every time he pushes you down
You cant give up now.

Well,
Pulling myself together is easier said than done.
For similar things have been said to me,
Only for them to amount to nothing at all.
But then why does this time feel different?
Why do I feel lighter, better when the tell me these things?
Maybe this time it’s actually different,
Maybe things will actually get much better.

I don’t know yet.
I’m not sure of anything at all.
But I think it’s worth it this time.
I think I’ll get my hopes up after all.
Though it hurts a lot,
And I don’t how to fix all the broken parts,
Maybe the dark times really are almost over,
And the days coming are better than ever.

They say the darker the circumstance the brighter you’ll shine.
They say God doesn’t take you so far only to leave you when it gets tough.
And you know what?
I actually believe it.
Its facts like these that keep me going after all.

I just want to give up, you know?
Its so much easier to just stay sad,
But it seems like there’s something stirring up on the inside of me.
It says “try, try again. This could really be it!”
And I’m not going to ignore it.