Not sure what this poem is going to be about,
Because I’m really not sure what exactly is wrong with me.
I legit got eight hours of sleep last night.
So why am I still tired?

Why do I still drag my feet as I walk along the corridors,
How can I sleep and sleep and still wake up with no vigor?
I mean people go through so much more,
And they’re doing just fine.
What is wrong with me?
What am I always so tired?

I’m not even sure if it’s just a physical problem.
Sometimes I wonder if I’ll be sad and tired for life.
Yes, I’m kinda sad, don’t forget that,
And I’m worried I’ll always be this way.
Please let me explain.
When I was in secondary school, I thought I’d be happier in uni.
I was sad then because of the way people were treating me.
Now I’m in the university and I feel so alone,
Drowning under the pressure, the stress and woes that remain untold.

I’m scared but no one really gets it,
I’m wounded but no one knows what to do.
I don’t know if I can handle this.
I don’t know if I can keep doing this.
Because everyone else is so sure of success,
But I mess things up everytime.
And I talk about it,
I share my pain, Express myself,
But everyone just tells me to move on.
How on earth do you expect me to do that?!
I once gave something my all,
I gave it everything I had,
And  still it fell apart,
Tell me how do you expect me to believe in myself again.

Maybe that’s why I’m always tired.
It isn’t just the physical.
Because even when I’m not running in real life,
I’m running in my sleep,
From my thoughts, from my fears,
From my woes, from my pain,
But I can never quite out run them all
I wonder if I’ll ever really be okay.

I don’t want to be like this forever,
I don’t want to live each day in pursuit of the nex.
I don’t always want to be this tired,
I don’t want to be sad for the rest of my life.
Don’t want to keep running from the  trauma,
I just want to leave it all behind.
But for now, this is how I feel,
And I don’t know what to do about it.
What I really need right now is for someone to sit with me and let me cry on their shoulders,
Someone to hold me together before I completely fall apart.