It’s weird how you can feel alone,
When you’re surrounded by people at work and at home.
You start to wonder if you’re the problem,
If something is wrong with you,
Or maybe that’s just the way you’re wired.

It isn’t the same as it used to be,
Before the big decision.
I used to have so many friends,
My phone dinging with all sorts of notifications,
Then one day the dinging stopped,
And it was kinda like I’d been forgotten.

We’re in different places now,
Everyone is really busy.
But for some reason my life is it a standstill,
And nothing seems to really be moving
I used to have people to rant to,
To talk to all the time,
But now it’s like they’ve all forgotten me,
Like I was only useful for sometime.

And I know it isn’t true,
And they’re probably really busy,
But it hurts to wake up to zero missed calls,
With WhatsApp looking like I’m out of data.

What happened to buzzing group chats?
Long talks into the night?
Having things to do, places to go to?
An important reason to get up each day?

And it’s not like I’m alone alone,
I still have friends I talk to and my family is doing quite well,
But it isn’t quite the same as it was before.
Everything’s changed and I don’t know where time has gone.

No one gets me now.
They say they do but they don’t,
And I keep all my problems to myself.
It hurts cause this feeling won’t go away,
I can only distract myself from it.
And I know I’m never truly alone,
Not with God by my side.
But I do miss that warm feeling of loving your friend group,
And having them love you right back.